MMH, sschool's speeding up again. It's kinda sad, though. Everyone's too busy to go back to how life was like during the first 3 months.

I remember how those were like, though. Friday class outings, shameless sweet eating in class, lotsa laughing... Heh. Those were fun. They only come once, I guess. Now, it's more work for everyone; be it actually understanding lecs, or doing tutorials. It's kinda sad. Perhaps, it's impossible to get everything back again, but something similar. Wishful thinking? I really don't know any more.

I wanted to stay so badly.
Now, I can't wait to leave.
The irony doesn't escape me, even if other, perhaps more important, things do.

I don't understad what there is to blog about any more.
Life goes on, people rarely read others' blogs to keep track of theirs, since they're too busy with their own lives.
We're all living such different lives, having such diverse experiences.
Can we relate, at all, any more?

I really miss how life was like in sec 4, even though it was THE year for us.
haha, but I guess everyone misses their sec sch.
None of us can help missing the familiarity; it just gets overwhelming sometimes, especially when things don't seem to be going your way. Or going the way we want them to go.

Training tomorrow. Again.

Good luck, sec 4s(: JIAYOU for your MYEs.
Don't let yourselves down!

Ahhh. So, school's been hecitc.
So, everything's not ideal
So, everyone's not as free.
But, that's life, for now.
What else can we ask for?

I guess this week's been a stark contrast to the my angst-ridden week a while ago.
It's gotten better, I guess?
My choic; now, I've gotta live with it.
And I'll learn. I think it really ISifferent now; I can't and won't go back to sec 3 again.
It's not gonna happen cos I'M not gonna let it.
Wonder how long my resolve will last for...

Things to say and things not to say;
struggling between the two; dare we go either way?

I miss Cedar, still.
Everything from the CACAT 4/I clique, to the OALS, to the PEECEEs... Everything, everyone. It's kinda hard seeing how it was so comfortable then and it's still getting TO comfortable for now. It won't ever be the same, that's for sure; and, I guess, that's why we miss it the most.

AFter the campfire, we've got nothing much to go back to Cedar for any more...
It's kinda heart-breaking when there's finality in an end.

Yesterday was a bad and good day all at once.
It's one thing to be in Cedar again, happy... But it's another thing altogether being in Cedar, knowing it's the last time you're gonna get reults there and getting shitty results to remember that experince by.
Well done, Shermaine Lim.
Congrats to those who did well(: Y'all deserve it.
Congrats to the rest of 4I who did remarkably well(: An average of 7.9's just... CRAZY.
Congrats to those in 07S77 who got their various As and Bs for HIGHER chinese. (I'M AN INDEPENDENT MEMBER OF THE C CLUB!)
Congrats to Peiyu for getting STRAIGHT A1s.

Sorry I pangseh-ed you, Sining/Mingjin/Jessica/Shuhwee/Wanjing/Grace.

And also, thank you.
To those who gave hugs freely, to those who comforted.
But, espcially to the guys of 07S77. For coming down, for making my laugh and for making me remember that there's still hope yet.

Take comfort, for all those who didn't do as well.
It'll be okay(: I hope.
The good Lord is fair and merciful.

It's not the end yet.
Prayerfully not, ever.

It's been a good week(:
It's bene spent with great company, doing things that will definitely be remembered for a long time to come.
So, if the Good Lord should decide to send me elsewhere, I know I would've lived like I wanted to, created the impact I wanted to. And I would know that I've finally done somethign right. And nothing in the world can beat that feeling.
After all's been laughed at, talked about and what not, I realise that there really isn't any running from your past; it'll catch up one day. We decide to do things, usually knowing full well the backlash of our actions. What we want versus what it'll cost us to get what we want; how much more will we give up?
Some things end; nothing is forever. So, everything we embark on, we know will end right from the start. Losing, letting go; things that we've all gotta do. A matter of time and patience, healing a broken ego, soul... Heart.
Some people walk out on our lives, a blatant reminder that not many wish to witness our lives; yet, we hope for people who will any way. So, does it mattr then if they leave us for a while or forever, if all we want are people to remember who we were and we stood for?
Hmmm. I don't know; I miss some things, some people.
The laughs. The talks. The trust.
No turning back now, so good luck.
Forgetting's easiest. Can you?

How have you been doing?
Just something I've been meaning to ask.
Ohwell. OAC 07's coming isn't it?
Remember kitchen 06?
Good luck to all involved(:

Looking ahead; so SS(x
But something we've gotta live by(:

I spent the whole afternoon with JAZZY.

And I was reminded of how much I miss Cedar. ESPCIALLY ALL the cacat things we did, when or not people were looking(x SO many reasons to go back, so many memories to go back for; but somehow, things are different now. SIGH.

To remember the Cedar and Cedarians I know/knew...
I'M UPLOADING THE PICS THAT SHOULD'VE BEEN UPLOADED AT LEAST A YEAR AGO(X





















So, moral of everything... I MISS CEDAR LIKE CRAP! ):

Haha, for those of y'all in those pics...
And even if you're not...
I MISS EVERYONE!