Ronin.One more moment.
Don't take too long to say
"I love you" to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
with each and every word that passes by,
like a distant memory,
and time keeps slipping away,
and time will turn to grey,
and time will be the one who holds you down,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,

And I want you by my side,
and I need you here tonight,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
and in the end it hits you hard,
please tell me you'll be strong

..i wonder if the world ended tmr,
how many people in the world would say 'i love you' to someone else and really mean it.

And SO IT ENDS.
one semester has FLOWN past.
i can't believe it;
HALF A YEAR has just gone past.
it's amazaing how i never really FELT it.
it was almost as if we were living day to day,
not really KNOWING how much time had passed.
settling down, OAC 06, LI 06..
and before we knew it,
the MYEs had come and gone.
gosh, this year passed so quickly.
never expected it to be so...

I guess this leaves even less room for contemplation and regret.
the last 6 months should be spent in ENTIRE contentment,
never looking back, but anticipating what's to come.
sure, things have happened;
relationships change, RESULTS came.
but through it all, good things happened.
we were forced to leave some things behind,
and to take up some things.
it's all good, though; it's all good.
to live in the moment;
one of the easiest things to say,
but one of the most difficult to accomplish.
i think it's in our nature to be paranoid,
but how much till that paranoia consumes us?
we keep worrying but the future, bout the past.
so, when do we LIVE FOR THE PRESENT?
to stop worrying, seems to be the answer.
but it's almost impossible to.
isn't it?

ONE MONTH.JUNE 2006.
our last chance to make up for everything.
we're told to STUDY HARD.
who wouldn't want an L1R5 of 6?
everyone does.
it's a matter of HOW MUCH you want it.
i believe by being in cedar,
all of us already have that inherant ability to get what we WANT.
the teachers tell us so, too.
now, we just have to do it.
things have always been easier said than done,
but they were never impossible.
WORK yes.we have to WORK for it.
there must surely be some truth to the saying
'you reap what you sow'
if people have been quoting it for so long(:

so to all those disheartned by their results..
JIAYOU!(:
it ain't impossible.
WE've just gotta WORK FOR IT.
and i know, that throughout that JOURNEY,
there will be friends cheering us on,
dragging us to be where we should be.
yep, it's usually the destination that counts,
BUT it's the journey that makes everything worthwhile(:

it's not about what you GET,
but the person you become even if you don't get it.
i can't quote that,
but it was inspired by what someone...wrote.
haha, i guess it's true.
it takes a big person to say that,
and a bigger person to believe that.
so, to...
i wish the best of everything.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
friend of 4 years
and
closer friend of barely 2 months.

The past 2 weeks have been ABLSOLUTE heaven.
no exams, no stress.
good company, plenty of fun and laughs.
I'M NOT COMPLAINING!
haha, we're told to LIVE IN THE MOMENT.
CARPE DIEM!SEIZE THE DAY!
haha, so we will.
what's the point in life, if we don't? x)

"Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing, but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me"
--Michael Buble.Save the last dance for me.

Put on them dancing shoes and dance the night away
haha, if we could moment forever,
i'd freeze time now.
the past makes us who we are,
the present defines us.
YEAH MAN.
just a few more days of relaxation.
then, it's back to work.
but WHO CARES.
nothing is free from work.
better to make use of BREAKS.

210506-
WENT TO THE BEACH WITH MY PUBCOMM!!(: (:
haha, got drenched while cycling.
HAHA, but we continued anyway.
THANK GOD for such FINE weather(:
the first pucommm outing in 5 months and it was PERFECT(:
more good memories with the pubcomm(:
rachael hong and deborah lam;
thank you.

190506-
CROSS COUNTRY!
yay!got top 100.haha.
expected to get ALOT less.so, i'm HAPPY(:
(and someone finally passed something she owed me for 1month and 6days? x) THANKYOU)
WENT OUT FOR THE HOT anniversary! :D
haha, we're two this year? x)
8 of us-sarah, grace, vi, ziyan, dolly, jazzy, ahu and i.
MAD time at seoul garden.
laughing, taking pics, watching some people behave INAPPROPRIATELY x)
haha, it was fun(:
then we went SHOPPING.
goodness, we were so tired after that x)
so we bought a movie (walk the line)and sarah, grace, vi and jazzy came over to watch it.
ended up watching ella enchanted instead x)
haha, but it was worth it(:
FULL HOT outing soon, perhaps?(:
i'm HOPING! *crosses fingers*

hmm.speaking of HOT outings,
when can we have another leaders' one? x)
HEHEH.i miss the kitchen dept.. ):

the rest of the days have been spent slacking/wasting away.
haha.better now than never, hmmm?
5 more days..5 more.
to the end of something,
and the beginning of another(:

'..i'm so used to living under the surface.

And i walk on water,
and you will catch me if i fall.
and i will get lost into your eyes.
And everything will be alright.'
-Lifehouse.Storm.

And so, the good week ends.
RESULTS BACK THIS WEEK.
did terribly for chem, bio and ss/geog.
well, what's a person to do?
you put in EFFORT,
yet you don't see RESULTS.
life's funny that way;
you never really reap what you sow.
most irritating thing is that this time ain't the first.

4/i's a freaky class.
first in what, 4 subjects and 1 elective?
hmmm, and we were the 'just made it' class..

we're supposed to start STUDYING again, this week.
sometimes, i seriously don't see the point-
you SLOG it out for ONE exams,
only to get SHIT results.
then we're expected to GO BACK again.
it's probably not any of the teachers' faults,
but it still can't be helped if we do badly and feel bad.

this SHOULD be a trivial matter.
this SHOULD be a small set back.
then again, when have we ever done what SHOULD be done?
we rebel against everything we're MADE to be.
who's to say things are ever gonna be 'normal'?
MID YEARS DON'T COUNT.
that's a fact.
but SO WHAT?
it scared ME shitless.
i wonder what's gonna happen if our L1R5s all looked bad for prelims.
i can't say EVERYONE did badly for midyears,
but i think it's safe to say most of us did.

some overcame.
some backslid.
some stayed stagnant.

you run; you run your hardest.
you see that you're ahead;
then, like a sudden downpour,
you're chasing people's dust clouds.
and all you're left with is mud,
the rain and blurry vision.
should it decide to pour in the prelims..
will we remain a cut above the rest?
..or left to slow down in mud?

it doesn't matter.
it DOESN'T matter.

so why does it still eat me?

To the most awesome people in the world-
THANK YOU,
for making may 12th and 13th absolutely THE BEST.
the SWEETEST birthday;
much less sixteenth birthday, hmmm?
haha, thanks people.
y'all know who you are :D

..it doesn't happen,
till it happens in your heart.

WELL.
i'll remmeber this.
'cos it HAPPENED.
in a big way(:

The HOTfamily, 3/i-4/i 05-06.
thank you...
and to all those who remembered(:
thanks loads(:

i'm SIXteen.
HAH.that's funny.

THEY ARE OVER!
YES!!!!FINALLY OVER!
the MYEs of 2006 are FINALLY OVER!
goodness knows what a nerve wrecjign week that was;
the late night mugging and early morning STUDYING.
not to mention the wake up CALL ;)
MEMORIES that'll surely repeat with the prelims and Os.
WE HAVE A WEEK OFF FROM SCHOOL!(:
such a blessing(:
haha, now to PLAY HARD.
(before the MINDLESS studying starts again T.T)

WE WENT CRAZY AFTER THE PHYSICS PAPER!
screaming answers in the canteen!
then running after a certain MUTHU BOY (and being dao-ed) in the FOYER.
or, the indecisiveness in deciding WHAT TO DO x)
or WHERE AND WHAT TO EAT! x)
so, we finally decided on pizza hut in ps.
discussed POLITICS! 0.0 and SMELLY CHEESE! x)
haha, then we decided to go down to the new cine cinema..
HURHUR.LONG WALK!
and watched "when a stranger calls"!!
haha, the six of us (jing, daddy, tata, khong, sining and i)
sat in the lovers seats.
TSK! xx) but it was really funny seeing jing SCREAMING,
or tata and khong screaming prematurely and sinking in their seats.
OR ALL six of us using our jackets and covering our faces till our noses.
HAHA.but the movie was SHOCKING man.
and poor girl; became psycho after the whole thing.
SIGH.oh well..
lessons learnt:
1)NEVER BABY SIT IN A SECLUDED HOUSE IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE EVEN THOUGH THE HOUSE LOOKS DARN NICE AND EVEN HAS A POND IN IT.
2)do not be stupid and ask your friend to leave when it's raining/stroming.
3)ALWAYS stay with the maid; she might die.
4)HIDE the kids in a trunk and tuck all bits of cloth into the trunk.
5)do not have weird ceilings which can hide people.

WOOHOO!/then we went to take very LiAnXz NeoPRintSZ!
haha, we're such deprived beings x)
BUT, better now than never x)
(can't believe we're in sec 4 already) ):
haha, then we WINDOW SHOPPED!
and went to have CHEESECAKE at nydc(:
haha, played caiquan and kena-ed twice.
the concoction was DISGUSTING!!! :S
ECK.haha.

woohoo, SENTOSA TMR!(:

i can't believe the work as to REASTART soon.
it's ridiculous.

oh well.
all in stride x)