MMH, sschool's speeding up again. It's kinda sad, though. Everyone's too busy to go back to how life was like during the first 3 months.

I remember how those were like, though. Friday class outings, shameless sweet eating in class, lotsa laughing... Heh. Those were fun. They only come once, I guess. Now, it's more work for everyone; be it actually understanding lecs, or doing tutorials. It's kinda sad. Perhaps, it's impossible to get everything back again, but something similar. Wishful thinking? I really don't know any more.

I wanted to stay so badly.
Now, I can't wait to leave.
The irony doesn't escape me, even if other, perhaps more important, things do.

I don't understad what there is to blog about any more.
Life goes on, people rarely read others' blogs to keep track of theirs, since they're too busy with their own lives.
We're all living such different lives, having such diverse experiences.
Can we relate, at all, any more?

I really miss how life was like in sec 4, even though it was THE year for us.
haha, but I guess everyone misses their sec sch.
None of us can help missing the familiarity; it just gets overwhelming sometimes, especially when things don't seem to be going your way. Or going the way we want them to go.

Training tomorrow. Again.

Good luck, sec 4s(: JIAYOU for your MYEs.
Don't let yourselves down!

Ahhh. So, school's been hecitc.
So, everything's not ideal
So, everyone's not as free.
But, that's life, for now.
What else can we ask for?

I guess this week's been a stark contrast to the my angst-ridden week a while ago.
It's gotten better, I guess?
My choic; now, I've gotta live with it.
And I'll learn. I think it really ISifferent now; I can't and won't go back to sec 3 again.
It's not gonna happen cos I'M not gonna let it.
Wonder how long my resolve will last for...

Things to say and things not to say;
struggling between the two; dare we go either way?

I miss Cedar, still.
Everything from the CACAT 4/I clique, to the OALS, to the PEECEEs... Everything, everyone. It's kinda hard seeing how it was so comfortable then and it's still getting TO comfortable for now. It won't ever be the same, that's for sure; and, I guess, that's why we miss it the most.

AFter the campfire, we've got nothing much to go back to Cedar for any more...
It's kinda heart-breaking when there's finality in an end.